v_a Life Story

When Young Meet Older People

2012-01-19T17:31:00.000-05:00

I lived in a country called Indonesia,where all the young people have to show their best respect to the old people.The younger sister has to show some respect to the older one. Respect means youhave to call them with Kak, Pak, Bu etc,you can’t call them by their name.

Well a long time ago it was fine for me,but now seems I got a little problem with that. These are the reason why :

First, I sort of act like an American.

Hold up, I’m not tryingto be snooty here. I mean… Well I’ve lived there once. Even it was only for ayear, I lived with real American family, be friends with real Americanteenagers and mingle with real American community so I learnt a lot from them.The thing is, for American there’s no such a thing called “senior” (only usedfor calling “old” people). I mean in The U.S you can call your parents,relatives or people in general by their real name. There is no specificattitude that you have to show when you are talking with them. You don’t haveto kiss their hand or using specific words etc. Only use sisters and brothers Imingled with Muslim community.

They do in Indonesia.You have to show some respect when you meet older people in general whether youhave to kiss their hand, choose specific words when talking with them alsothere are bunch of dos and don’ts.

When the first time Iwas in The U.S, I try to call my liaison with Brother Jeff. As the time goes itsounds annoying. I still called my host family by Daddy and Mommy even I cancall them by their name. I can talk about everything with my teacher, theyoften share stories about boyfriend or wife with us without being embarrassed.I saw my sister kicked Dad’s ass with her feet. I saw my brother messed upMom’s head too.

I got a lot of troublewhen I went back to Indonesia. I felt like I’m a total freak, I felt like nooneunderstand me. Lucky me, my real Mother understand the situation, I’ve beenchanging a lot. Well I said everything in my mind to her whether I like or Idon’t like something. I’m not saying it was okay, we had such a big fightalmost everyday till my Mother get used dealing with my “new” attitude. When itwas all-okay with my Mom it wasn’t okay for other family member. My cousinalmost slapped me right in my face when he heard the way I was talking with myMother, he said it was so impolite.

Until now I stilltreated people no matter how old you are – the same. The way I talk to myMother is exactly the way I talk with my friends and teachers. I treated peoplelike an American does. Sometimes it’s just hard to realize that people labeledme as impolite girl.

Second, I play different role in differentcommunity

I have a job as ateacher, English instructor, speakers, presenter etc.

As a teacher orEnglish instructor I have to be like whoever person I teach. If I’m teaching kindergartenkids, I have to speak, play sometimes dance like a kid. I can’t act like an oldteacher that they have to call me “Bu Guru”, the class will become so boring.When I’m teaching general class with sometimes high school, manager, housewifeand college people on it, I have to act like a pro. Sometimes they think thatI’m 25 years old or something, because if they do know how young I am, theymight feel uncomfortable and they rather choose another person who older thanme. So I have to act exactly as their friend and make them feeling okay withthe environment no matter how old they really are.

As a speaker I have toconvince everyone that my experience is worth to try or I have to make surethat they can believe all the information I give to them. Sometimes I speak infront of young people, sometimes people whom older than me in general. So Ihave to act like an old people at least older than my actual age.

As a presenter, I useto accompany cool people like an ambassador of a country, politician, famouspeople or whoever cool for people to listen. So I cant tell them how young I amthan them but it hurt when sometimes people call me “ibu” than “mba”. *sigh

Third, I’mfeeling okay

The last reason is… For me it’s okay to not treat me, as thecommon old people in Indonesia want them to be treated. It’s fun to feel youngall the time, it’s cool to be able to speak in front of older people and notbeing ignored and they actually listen to every word you say, it’s fine for youngpeople to just call me by my name without saying “Kak” before my name, I feelcomfortable when I’m able to treat my teacher or whoever is way smarter than melike my own best friend, it feels good when you able to speak and not hidingsomething from my parents. I never tryingto impress people by being someone I am not because in the end they willfind out who you really are.

So, what doyou think?

Well I know… I lived in a country with different rules andcustom. Especially Indonesia, when people seems really want to know all aboutyou. Sometimes they care a lot about you more than they took care of their ownlife. When you act “different” be ready to hear all the negative feedback fromthem. Sometimes they can control your life without feeling guilty at all. Theycan easily judge you by the way they are thinking about you without knowing whoyou really are.

The good things are, you can find people who care about youeverywhere. You can actually ask them to care and agree about things you’vesaid. People really love you when you can do the entire good thing they wantyou to do. Everybody feel special when you be able to show them some respectthan anybody. The last thing, it’s Indonesia! You can’t against more than ahundred thousand people who had their mind set with all of those rules andcustom, not everyone been to the U.S and understand foreign mind set.

But I learnt a lot. Some International proverbs told me

“Learning is atreasure that will follow its owner everywhere.“

“By learning you willteach; by teaching you will learn.”

“A closed mind is like a closed book; just a block of wood”

“He who respects his parents never dies.”

“If you can't lick 'em, join 'em.”

“Tell me and I'll forget. Show me, and I may not remember.Involve me, and I'll understand.”

“What the people believe is true.”

Capture The Moment

2012-01-19T00:25:00.001-05:00

These are the moment that i love the most...

Capture his bbm :P

My Mom's sms about him

My favorite tweets

Well, there are still a BUNCH of moment we have shared together. These are just a few of them, i hope we will able to share everything till we couldn't breath anymore ...

The Memories We've Been Through - The Timeline

2012-01-18T07:02:00.001-05:00

2011

Oct 15 :

Even it wasn’t my first time butit was my first time fell for something with a guy and his charming brightsmile, was wearing red squared long sleeves shirt he also showed his goodpersonality. I was hypnotized

My friend was giving me his blackberrypin and I was acting so weird for a whole day!
Ps. look at the picture! i know the black squared one is waaay much hotter than the red one (unfortunately he's a married guy *gonna be my brother in law*) -____-

Oct 16 :

The first time I tried to contacthim. It was “ Lagi dimana? Udah pada balik?” LOL

Oct 28 :

I was showing up in the futsalfield exactly when he texted me saying “I need you here” :P

I stayed and we had our first night talking *someone was there and ruined the whole moment :P upsii sorry

Oct 29 :

He asked me out for (should I callit a first date??) on Saturday night! It was my first Saturday night ever

That was my first time feeling“something” towards him, because it was kinda learning from each other moment. It was great!

FYI. It was at Comic Café Tebet –Upper Level

Oct 30 :

We had fight when he was tellingme about everything ( i don't know yet). I really had no idea at that time. I lost control of myself

He came to my house broughtsandwiches for my dinner ( I don’t know it was for dinner or for make upapology :P ) What a day! It was my first time crying over him

Nov 1 :

We decided to make today is ourday to be in relationship. No, he didn’t do something like a man in the lovedrama movies always do (figured out that he is not that romantic kind of guy lol).

Nov 2 :

Met new people Bii’s bestfriendKa Dodo, he also brought another girl--friend too. He picked me up because it was Ka Dodo’s birthday. We went to Café Tenda-Gading. I hada great time with my Bii

Ka Dodo

The blue one is Ka Dodo, Ignore the cowboy hat one!

Nov 9 :

Our first movie night!! We went to XXI Gading to seeJohnny English Reborn. We also had dinner that night. It was fun!

Nov 13 :

Raffi’s birthday :) He looks waaaaayyyy more handsome than his father :P . **Pleaaaseee don't be as weird as your father, okey *toss!

A WORD : ADORABLE!

Nov 18 :

He gave permission for me to go toBandung for PNMHII tomorrow, he also had to go out of town for work. It’s fairenough :P

Nov 23 :

Abd Karim Al-Jufri ‘s birthday!Well I didn’t do something special like I really wanted to, but I called himthat night in the middle of - Me discussing about amendment in Joint StatementForum PNMHII. My head was spinning, thinking between should I get out from theroom and call him or should I stay in the room and call him later, but i decided to sent him a voice note of me singing Selena Gomez's song "Love You Like a Love Song" a couple days after, he said my voice is bad. Blah! *that's gonna be the last!

Nov 24 :

I just came home from Bandung, hewas come to meet me but I was really tired and we ended up with him walked outta my house. Blah! Atnight, in so not really well condition I went out , bought him a birthdaypresent (it was a fancy blue squared long sleeves shirt), and tried to find his house by using GPS but I couldn't find it. I texted him tomeet me at 7-11 that night, well he wasn't even happy i did that and i left him alone. -____-

The B.day shirt from meh!

Nov 26 :

I went to The Premiere XXI Gadingwith him watched Breaking Dawn. We were lining up in XXI line for a long time and the mba2 said to us "well just go that way" (pointed her finger to the other place) BLAH!

Nov 29 :
We ordered dinner and watched Friends With Benefits at home starring Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis

Dec 1 :

He surprisingly came to my house and brought lunchfor me :D . How nice! It was Sapo Tahu (my favorite one!)

Dec 9 :

He picked me up and We went to Karaoke with his friends. It was my first time heard he sang a song. His voice wasn't that bad thou :P I Love IT!

He used to sing this song

Dec 16 :

I was in Pacific Place Mall ,about to meet him that night but he was falling asleep and we had fight(again).
Ps. He blamed the security guy for not letting me in when i wasn't even meet the security guy! (What a shame *shaking my head)

*Dec 20 :

We skype-ing in the blind of morning (Whaaatt???) and do Heart to heart discussion in the evening :D

Dec 22 :

He was surprising me by suddenlyshowed up in campus ( I remember the way he was blushing when everyone greet him and probably wondering why he was even there :P ). After that, I accompanied him eat late-lunch in Mami. We went to Gading Mall and he bought a SUPER comfy pillow for me :D

Dec 23 :

We went to Mall Of Indonesia andwatched Sherlock Holmes 2: Game of Shadows at Blitz Megaplex Velvet :D .Again after lined up in regular line the mas2 said for velvet you go that way (pointed his finger to the other room) BLAAAH!

Dec 24 :
I found him sleeping outside his room (di gigit nyamuk itu pasti dia, kedinginan, kebayang ga si dengan badannya yg kurus itu nyamuk mau ngisep apaan???) Feeling sorry for that...

*Dec 25 :

We had fight and I was fainting at the time we hadto attend ka Adnan’s birthday party. He brought me to the Mitra Keluarga GadingHospital Emergency room. I felt so weak that day, but he always stay next to memake sure that everything’s gonna be okay. That day I realized that I wouldnever let him go, I fell so deep in love with him. (but at the end he still forced me to attend the party, he was singing an dancing like a total freak guy!*and i left him and took a taxi home)

Dec 26 :
Because i was kinda pissed off last night, i have to gave back all of his stuff (his phone, his wallet) today and i ate breakfast in KFC in case he wanted to meet me, but he stayed whole day in his room, i went back to my house and had so much fun at William's party *Yeah me!!
*Ps. again he blamed the security guy for not letting me in, the guy didn't even say a thing to me, i'm the one who didn't wanna come in!

Dec 27 :
He went to Toraja for work. Harap-harap cemas dia bakal nakal apa engga disono

*Dec 30 :

He just came back from Toraja buthe picked me up because I was not in my good condition. Again, he took care ofme .

2012

*Jan 1 :

Happy New Year!! It was my firstnew year’s party with my boyfriend and his family. I felt like stranger at the first time but I’mpretty sure someday I will be a part of those people. Met lots of new peoplehere at Margi’s home.

Ps. I decided to be his wife,exactly when the clock showed 00.00 . Noone heard that instead of myself, myheart and Allah swt. ( I was whispering to myself)

Jan 2 :
Today was my first time (ever) telling my Mom that i want to marry my man. I told her about him even his picture and she's fine with that, but she gave me time till i finish my school or get a job then he can proposes me :D

*Jan 4 :

We had lunch together and I wasarranging his closet ( yg berantakannya ampun2an!) while he was finishing the list for my final test :P

Lemarinya Karim bgt !!!!

*Jan 9 :

He went back to Jakarta. I methim again J

Jan 11 :

He had to go to Malang for work

Jan 13 :

I found something, We had discussed about it but ended up with fighting

Jan 14 :

“We fight we make up, we kiss webreak up” – Katy Perry hahaha

But at the end we finish that with a big fast-food dinner at McD Salemba (He ordered Triple cheese burger AND Double prosperity burger with a Large coke!!!), had a greattime too J

Ps. He registered his blackberry with only chat and mail service (Whaaat a shaaameee!) LOL

Jan 17 :

I wrote a blog post about himhere .He was asking that for a long time before i finally wrote that down.

I decided to meet him after work.I miss him like I haven’t seen him for a week!
He got fever and suddenly it just gone like a water in a hot kettle :P . We had really nice conversation. ( I brought home his cool sweater and couple of ethnic-fabric )

The Cozy Red Sofa :P

Jan 18 :

I tried to remember and wrote all of these timeline! He just laughing and reminded me with only all of my "stupid" moment and his "best" moment BLAH! ( I still not gonna wrote those down either *winning!)

*Jan 19 :
He was acting so dang cute-annoying (it was cute but also pretty annoying- i really have to pinch or bite his body till it leaves a mark next time). He was like a little boy who never satisfy to ask and get everything in one time.
Well, at the end i called it Adam Sandler's movies day. I watched "Just Go With It" (feels like a hundred times) and "50 First Dates" I really love the movie, almost cry for the ending. I'm not gonna tell you the story but it's a really good movie to watch (with your boyfriend of course)!
Then we had late night noodles dinner-talk night :P

*Jan 21
Spent the whole day with him. Been visited his office party, met lots of new people.

*Jan 22
He came to my house woke me up to pack my stuff for the camp. After that he drove me to the camp, i'll stay for a week :( bye

Jan 23-28
The camp

*Jan 28
Packing up to Jogja tomorrow. It's hard to leave him alone :P

Jan 29
He accompanied me to the Airport. Saying goodbye to see you later is weird. Almost miss my plane because of spending too much time to say it :P

Masi ngantuk yee :P

Well those are the memories i will always remember. I will read this over and over and over again to bring my smile back (if someday i have to hate you when you piss me off *oh well, you always did*) so there's no reason for me to not remember how much i love you each and everyday.

I love you my husband gonna be - Abdul Karim Al-Jufri :*

XOXO

Ungkapan rasa syukur untuk pasangan by @dikarestiyani

2012-01-17T06:11:00.000-05:00

Ungkapan rasa syukur untuk pasangannya by @dikarestiyani

Jika hidup ini hanya untuk sementara... jika sang waktutidak dapat diulang kembali... Jika hanya ada satu kali kesempatan utkmemilih...

Izinkan aku untuk mencintai dia karenaMu Ya Allah...Hati ini tak pernah berhenti bersyukur atas datangnya cinta dan kasih sayang dariseorang imam terbaik pilihan Mu untuk ku. Imam yang Engkau takdirkan untukmenuntun jalanku agar selalu berada di jalanMu..

Demi sang waktu..sang fajar..& cinta dalam ridhoAllah, aku bersyukur akan hadirmu yg menjadikan aku wanita yg utuh dalam iman& Islam.

Jika hidup adalah sesuatu yg fana, maka aku inginmenjadi cinta yg nyata bagimu.Dengan batas waktu yg telah ditentukan SangPemilik Waktu.

Walau tak selamanya sepasang anak manusia dpt bersatu, namunaku bersyukur karena Sang Pemilik Cinta telah mengizinkanku mencintaimu karenaNya.

Cinta itu Allah yang punya, Allah yang mengizinkan, danAllah pula yang mengujinya...

Apabila cinta itu hadir di dalam hatiku & hatimu.. semogacinta itu adalah suatu pelengkap takwa yg membuat kita selalu ingat akankebesaran Allah

Izinkan aku dengan segala kekuranganku untuk mencintaidia dengan segala kekurangan nya...dengan sempurna karena Allah lilahi ta'ala.

Izinkan aku dengan segala kelebihan yang Engkautitipkan kepadaku dan kelebihan yg Engkau titipkan kepadanya, untuk salingmelengkapi...

For my beybii Abd Karim Al- Jufri J

Message From Heart

2012-01-16T22:47:00.000-05:00

The conversation between me and My Mom this morning :

Me : “Mah, What if hewalks away from me? That could be he is not what Allah swt 's plan for being my longlife-friend right? What if I become so sad? Who’s gonna healing that?”

I never expected the answer, My mom replied :

“Nanda, manusiawi sekali pada awal kejadian kita sedih.. Jikaitu terjadi, Allah swt mengajari kita langsung zikir dengan Innalillahi..

Nanda.. mari kita melihat dengan penglihatan Allah swt supayahati kita tenang, siap… di catatan Allah swt sekarang kan sudah tertulis apayang akan kita alami di hadapan kita, senang ataupun sedih..

Cuma kita sebagai hamba yang lemah, ketika terjadi itu langsung“kaget” kok begini?

Jika kita sudah paham dengan skenario Allah swt sebagai Mukminyang beriman pasti lapang dada, karena Allah swt menetapkan begitu…

Allah swt telah berjanji jika hambanya di beri ujian musibah dandia bersabar dengan ujian itu, kata Allah swt Dia akan menggati dengan yanglebih baik… Yakinlah dengan janji Allah swt

Mau gak Nanda di naikkan Imannya oleh Allah swt dan di sediakanSurga?

Caranya ya harus mau di uji dulu. Itulah bayarannya…

Berprasangka baiklah dengan ketetapan Allah swt mendapatkanRidhoNya

Mamah berdoa, selalu memohon kepada Allah swt agar memberi yangterbaik untuk nanda, mamah dan semua..

Perhatikan, lihatlah selama ini kita- nanda dan mamah- dan hanyakita berdua berjuang membangun sebuah harapan masa depan, karena kita gak maubergantung kepada orang lain- gak mau nyusahin orang lain.

Alhamdulillah kita bekerjasama, nanda bagian belajarnya…

Nanda itu sedikit lagi sudah hampir mencapai finish, tapi cobalihat… Allah swt hendak menguji kita, sekarang inilah ujiannya. Itu semuakejadian atas ijin Allah swt memang sudah tertulis di Lauh Mahfuz.. Ingatlahorang yang diuji itu hanya hamba-hamba yang terpilih. Mampukah kita melewatinyadengan keimanan?

Insya Allah swt… “

"Nanda coba kita renungkan ini, memang gak ada yang kebetulan... ini petunjuk Allah swt. Mamah baru aja ngambil buku tauhid yang di kasih ustadz Syamsuddin tebalnya 5cm, recana mau banya nanti pas buka bukunya, ini isi halaman yang kebuka ....

Diriwayatkan bahwa Ubadah bin Ash-Shamit berkata kepada anaknya,
"Hai anakku, sungguh kamu tidak akan merasakan nikmatnya iman sebelum kamu meyakini bahwa apa yang telah ditakdirkan mengenai dirimu pasti tidak akan meleset, dan apa yang telah ditakdirkan tidak mengenai dirimu pasti tidak akan menimpamu".

Aku telah mendengar Rasulullah saw bersabda,
" Sesungguhnya pertama-tama yang diciptakan Allah swt adalah Qalam (pena),
lalu Allah swt berfirman kepada Pena "Tulislah"
Pena menjawab "Ya Tuhanku, Apa yang harus kutulis?"
Allah swt berfirman " Tulislah takdir segala sesuatu sampai hari kiamat". "

Hai Anakku, aku pun telah mendengar Rasulullah saw bersabda,
"Barangsiapa yang meninggal tidak dalam keyakinan ini, maka ia tidak termasuk umatku. "

I couldn’t handle my tears the time I read all she was saying to me. I was imagining what my Father would say if hecan say something to me right now, I do miss his hug. That was from my Mom and theseare from Allah swt :

“Apakah kamu mengirabahwa kamu masuk surga, padahal belum nyata bagi Allah swt orang-orang yang“berjihad” diantara kamu (menegakkan islam, memerangi hawa nafsu, berinfak kejalan Islam, mencegah kemungkaran) dan belum nyata orang yang sabar…” – Q.S Ali Imron ayat 142

“Kamu pasti di ujidengan hartamu dan dirimu… jika kamu bersabar dan bertaqwa. Itu urusan yangdiutamakan” -Q.S Ali Imron ayat 186

“Wahai orang beriman,bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkan kesabaranmu dan bertaqwalah kepada Allah agar kamuberuntung” – Q.S Ali Imron ayat 200

“Sesungguhnyaterhadap hamba-Ku (beriman) engkau iblis tidaklah dapat berkuasa atas merekadan cukuplah Allah sebagai penjaga..” –Q.S AlIsro ayat 65

“Maka ni’mat TuhanMu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan”

Ya Allah swt thank you so much for always being right beside meeverytime and never get tired to love me and help me. I do love you more thananything in this world!

When Every Love Song Show The Way I Love Him

2012-01-16T22:43:00.000-05:00

Every second with you was the most precious moment I ever havein my life. I never thought that I would meet someone like you, the gentleman thattook everything in my life into his life. He was able to change my life. Healso able to put his name into my future plan. I learnt a lot about beingsomeone better from him.

Bii, I love you more than the way every love song tries to showit. I believe this is not temporary feeling I used to feel before. Become apart of your life was all-amazing. We have been shared our dreams, feelings,stories and everything about us.

Allah swt hold every plan of our future, I hope Allah swtagree with that.

Yes, it is true you are not my husband yet

But I hope you are still myfuture husband

Dear Bii,

I love you with all feelings I could feel.
I love the way you dealt with my selfishness, with mystupidity and everything, like no one ever did.
This morning I wrote this because the feeling that Imight lose you killing me in my dream and also in this real life, just becauseI have to realize our plan was totally unplanned yet.
I couldn’t imagine how my life could be without you.
We said that you will be a pilot and I will be yourco-pilot

What if you suddenly leave me due to my mistakes, orsomething happened?
You hope that even if we have to be separate, thedecision will not come from one of us but Allah swt

I couldn’t imagine what will happen to my heart if yourather choose another mature women than me- the childish-selfish human being.

I accept you for whoever you are. But I still hoping eachone of us will work as hard as we can to be a better person.
I plan to be your only wife in this real life and afterlife
I really do.

I did a lot of mistake, I know you have all the rights towalk away from me.
But deep in my heart, I hope you will never move even aninch from me.

I wanna hold your hand, feel the way you hug me, wipe mytears and help me to be strong than ever.

I picture you as the one who I will see the first time,when I wake up in the morning.
And I still have those dreams on me.

I have nothing to make you stay but those memories we’vebeen through.

Ya Allah swt please give us your best decision and teach me tobecome more open hearted to every last decision you give.

Give him your best as he deserves toget.

Tomorrow We Will Never Know. . .

2012-01-14T13:18:00.001-05:00

What will happen tomorrow? Noone could answer thatbut someone who always have a plan knew. Even not all the plan goes as we everexpected. Some people just let it flow.

I maybe the one who prefer to arrange my plan thanto follow the flow. When everything goes as I expected I always know how tomake it perfect even if it doesn’t I will never make it worst .

I’m not saying those people who just follow theflow are not good. The good thing is they don’t have to worry about anything.Life without worrying something in your life is totally fun.

The thing is :

The color of our life is not always black andwhite, sometimes you have to put the color that you don’t like , erase it,repaint it or even mix it with another color till you get what color do youwant.

To know how beautiful the bright full moon is wehave to see nothing at all in the dark and then the light comes out day by daytill it’s a perfect full moon, but it can’t always stay forever , it will fadeaway and it takes time till the full moon comes again

To see a rainbow, we have to discover hot weatherin the summer and how wet the rainy season is but it doesn’t make the rainbowcomes anytime. When it comes it looks amazing, the rainbow won’t stay forevereither, we will never know when it will comes to us, sometimes the rainbow justsurprise us.

There’s no such a thing call happy if you neverknow such a thing called sad. You will never know what the love is till youremember how the thing called broken heart really hurts you.

The point is

Dalam hidup kita gak akan pernah tau whether kitaakan jadi orang baik atau jahat. Apapun tujuan kita, kita gak akan pernah tauapa itu baik sebelum tau apa itu jahat. Terkadang kita perlu menjadi jahat,memperbaikinya, mengulanginya lagi bahkan mencampurnya dengan kebaikan sampaikita menemukan hal-hal terbaik yang kita inginkan

Kita gak akan pernah tau betapa berartinya sesuatuyang kita miliki sebelum kita tak pernah memilikinya dan kemudian sesuatu itudatang perlahan, membuat kita bahagia. Tetapi even sesuatu yang kita inginpertahankan pun tidak akan tinggal bersama kita selamanya. Dia akan pergiperlahan dan suatu saat akan kembali lagi

Untuk mendapatkan kebahagiaan yang sangat berarti,kita harus merasakan betapa sakitnya sesuatu yang paling sakit dan betapasusahnya hal yang paling susah. Itupun belum tentu membuat kebahagiaan itudatang kepada kita. Ketika kebahagiaan itu datang, dia datang dengan sempurna,itupun tak akan pernah kekal berada di sana. Kita gak akan pernah tau kapankebahagian itu akan menghampiri kita lagi, terkadang dia datang disaat yangtidak pernah kita duga.

Hal-hal yang kau inginkan terjadi mungkin akanterjadi begitu saja. Tetapi kau tidak akan pernah tau rasanya berjuang jika kautak pernah mengingat rasanya hal yang kau inginkan tak kunjung terjadi dan itusangat menyakitkan.

Sesuatu akan datang dan pergi begitu saja

Terkadang membuatmu sangat bahagia atau sangatsedih

Harapan akan muncul begitu saja

Terkadang kau akan berjuang mati-matian atau menyerahdi tengah jalan

Suatu hari nanti kau haru melepaskan sesuatu yangtak ingin kau pisahkan

Terkadang hal itu membuatmu menipu dirimu sendiri

Ada saatnya kau harus kuat disaat kau harusmenangis

Terkadang begitu pun tak pernah mampu membantumu

Karena di penghujung hari ini, cahaya sudah terang,semua sudah kau rasakan, sesuatu telah kau pelajari

Namun besok sangatlah gelap, apapun cahaya yang kaudapat hari ini mungkin dapat kau bawa besok, tetapi bisa jadi kau harusberjalan di dalam gelap sampai cahaya itu menerangimu sama seperti kemarin.

Terkadang kita sangat takut akan gelap yang belumkita jalani, bisa jadi kegelapan esok hari itu adalah kebodohan yang kitatertawakan beberapa hari kemudian.

Terkadang kita tak mau memasuki kegelapan itu,padahal kita tidak pernah tau beberapa langkah lagi cahaya sangat terang akanmenyinarimu di dalamnya.

So, That’s a tomorrow we will never know…

Ps. I love to listen to "Tomorrow"- Soundtrack of Annie The Musical .

" Tomorrow..tomorrow i love you tomorrow, you're always aday away"

Titip Cinta Untuk Sahabat Hidupku

2012-01-09T14:09:00.000-05:00

Ya Allah swt sungguh aku rindu…

Engkau Maha Mengetahui hidupku dan isihatiku

Jika kau beri aku kesempatan untuk bisaKau dengarkan

Aku minta Engkau Ridho Ya Rahmaan

Aku tak biasa merencanakan hidup danKau tau aku hanya bisa selalu berharap

Ya Tawwaab, aku percaya bahwa Engkaulahyang meyebabkan segala sesuatu terjadi, tidak ada yang kebetulan

Aku siap Ya Allah swt atas segalakeputusanMu, Aku tak tahu apakah aku mampu, namun aku tetap memohon kepadamu kesempatan itu

Ya Allah swt yang Maha Cinta

Kau pertemukan aku dengan dia

Aku percaya aku tak pernah meminta itu,doaku hanyalah Kau berkenan mempertemukan aku dengan orang-orang yang terbaikuntukku menurut Mu Ya Allah swt

Ya Allah swt tidak ada yang ku ketahuitentang apa-apa yang akan terjadi di hidupku

Satu pintaku, hanya RidhoMu Ya Aziz

Aku titip dia yang ada bersamaku saat iniYa Allah swt

Karna Engkaulah yang berhak menentukantulisan apa lagi yang akan tertulis di lembar kehidupanku

Sungguh tak ada cinta yang patut akucintai selain besarnya cintaku padaMu Ya Allah swt

Mungkin memang aku hanyalah pembual, tapiEngkau yang selalu ada menemaniku dalam keadaan terburukku sekalipun

Aku masih ingin Kau tak melupakanku YaAllah swt

Sungguh lelaki itu mendapatkan hatiku Ya Allah swt

Aku mohon padaMu tolong jaga dia

Tolong cintai dia sebagaimana kaumenitipkan rasa cintaMu padaku Ya Allah swt

Aku mohon... bimbing dia agar kelak Kaupercayakan dia untuk membimbingku

Bahagiakan dia sebagaimana Kau selalumembahagiakanku

Jadikan rizkinya, hartanya, darah dandagingnya dalam RidhoMu Ya Rabb

Dan aku…

Aku bukanlah hambamu yang sholeh,

Kalaubukan karena kasih dan sayangMu, telah tampaklah betapa hitam dan kelamnya akukarena dosa-dosaku

Ya Allah swt tetaplah bersamaku, jangankau tinggalkan kami, melupakan kami bahkan membenci kami

Jika dia yang kau beri amanah untukmenjadi sahabat hidupku, izinkan aku memohon kepadaMu

Hadiahi dia kesabaran dalam menemanilangkahku, karena kelak aku pasti terjatuh, kakiku pasti akan terluka, jalanku tidak selamanya mudah

Hadiahi dia kasih dan sayang karena kelakaku pasti akan rapuh dan aku akan menangis, aku akan sakit

Hadiahi dia setia karena kelak aku butuhseseorang untuk memegang erat tanganku, membimbing jalanku

Hadiahi dia keyakinan agar dia dapatselalu percaya akan kekuatanMu Ya Allah swt , kekuatan untuk selalu menjadi sahabathidupku baik dalam keadaan menangis ataupun tertawa

Untuk itulah aku memohon RidhoMu Ya Allahswt

Agar kau rela untuk tidak menghapuskan cinta inidari dalam diri kami, dari dalam hati kami

Agar kau rela membiarkan kami berjalan di dalam cintaMu

Agar kau tak memisahkan kami danmembiarkan kami dalam rasa sakit

Ya Allah swt

Kau Maha tau isi hatiku dan isi di dalam hatinya.

Kau maha mendengar doaku dan doa dirinya

Jika ini baik berikanlah, jika ini burukkembalikan hati kami padaMu

Ya Allah swt Tuhan yang aku cintai

Aku titip dia

Aku titip cinta untuk sahabat hidupku

Karena di genggaman Engkaulah

Perjalanan hidupku

Dan

Perjalanan hidup dirinya….

What am I gonna do?

2012-01-06T11:38:00.000-05:00

I want to scream my heart out but noone gonna hear it

I wanna cry till i drown in my own tears but nobody seems to care

I have nothing on me

I lost it all

What am I gonna do?

I should have listen but I ignored

What am I gonna do?

I feel like I'm a waste of space

Drifting through the wind

They told i shouldn't believing but I did

i'm lost in the middle of nowhere

What am I gonna do?

I'm begging for hope but I'm not forgiven

I ran away but all the doors are closed

This time I see no light

Noone seems to hold my hand

What am I gonna do?

Say the mistakes are the best pleasure

The pleasure that make you blind

Piece by piece it fades me out

Throw me away in a crowded place

What am I gonna do?

I might be dumb but i;m the dumbest one

Owe the night with please unpleasant

Hide me in

The song from the darkness calling

It wasn't good but I couldn't leave it out

What am I gonna do?

In this absurdism of waiting

Questioning . . .

Thinking . . .

Yelling . . .

Screaming . . .

Mocking . . .

I grounded in the ground of sins

Locked my own unlocked room

Throw the key throw the key

What am I gonna do?

In this song of insanity

Stop Stop it right there

I'm dancing through the rain

When thunder sparks the light out

I'm laughing in my tears

I'm smiling I'm bleeding

I'm calling I'm waiting

Shut me up

What am I gonna do?

What?

am I?

I gonna..

I do...

Please come please come please

I have it

I lost it

I can't find it

I destroy it

Please come please come please

What am I gonna do?

Last hope

I die

Penjelasan Terhadap Berita Hadist Nabi Tentang Huru-Hara di Bulan Ramadhan 2012

2012-01-05T09:14:00.000-05:00

Mungkin kalian sudah banyak yang dapat berita melalusms, bbm, email, pesan yang kira2 isinya seperti ini :

“ Lihat kalendar untuk tahun 2012... 1 Ramadhan padatahun 2012 jatuh pada 20 Juli yaitu hari Jumat, jadi 3 Agustus 2012 bersamaan15 Ramadan juga pada hari Jumat. Sama dengan satu hadis Nabi SAW tentang huruhara besar yang akan terjadi pada tengah malam pertengahan Ramadhan iaitu hariJumaat 15 Ramadhan di bumi ini. Huru hara yang akan mengejutkan semua orangyang sedang tidur... Satu suara yang amat dahsyat akan kita dengar dari langit,bukan kiamat tetapi huru hara tersebut akan melenyapkan umat manusia di atasmuka bumi ini sebanyak 2/3, yang tinggal hanya 1/3 shj. ( Menurut kajian NASA,pada 21-12-2012 satu planet yg yang dikenali planet X akan melintasi bumi )Adakah kita semua ni tergolong dalam 1/3 itu? Adakah peristiwa itu akn berlakupada 2012?? Hanya ALLAH yang Maha Mengetahui..

Yang penting kita perbanyakkan ibadat dan berdoa agarkita termasuk dlm golongan yg dilindungi Allah, jika mati biarlah kita mati dlmIslam dan beriman.. Apa pun, peristiwa itu pasti akan berlaku mengikut hadisNabi SAW di bawah..

Dari Nu'aim bin Hammad meriwayatkan dengan sanadnyabahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

Bila telah muncul suara di bulan Ramadhan, maka akanterjadi huru-hara di bulan itul...". Kami bertanya: "Suara apakah, yaRasulullah? " Beliau menjawab: "Suara keras di pertengahan bulanRamadhan, pada malam Jumaat, akan muncul suara keras yang membangunkan orangtidur, menjadikan orang yang berdiri jatuh terduduk, para gadis keluar daripingitannya, pada malam Jumaat di tahun terjadinya banyak gempa. Jika kaliantelah melaksanakan solat Subuh pada hari Jumaat, masuklah kalian ke dalam rumahkalian, tutuplah pintu-pintunya, sumbatlah lubang-lubangnya, dan selimutilahdiri kalian, sumbatlah telinga kalian. Jika kalian merasakan adanya suaramenggelegar, maka bersujudlah kalian kepada Allah dan ucapkanlah: "Mahasuci Al-Quddus, Mahasuci Al-Quddus, Rabb kami Al-Quddus ", keranabarangsiapa melakukan hal itu akan selamat, tetapi barangsiapa yang tidakmelakukan hal itu akan binasa".(Al Hadis). “

Pertanyaannya adalah Apakah anda mengecek keShahih-an hadist ini sebelum ikut-ikutan menyebarkan beritanya kepada oranglain?

Inilah penjelasan yang di ambil dari website : http://faridnuman.blogspot.com/2011/11/hadits-huru-hara-di-bulan-ramadhan.html

Semoga bisa dipertanggungjawabkan kebenarannya,Allahualam Bissawaab

berikut ini adalah teks Arab hadits yangditanyakan:

عن ابن مسعود قال قال رسول الله : - صلى الله عليه وسلم - إذا كانت صيحة فى رمضان فإنه يكون معمعة فى شوال وتمييزالقبائل فى ذى القعدة وتسفك الدماء فى ذى الحجة والمحرم وما المحرم يقولها ثلاث مراتهيهات هيهات يقتل الناس فيه هرجا هرجا قلنا وما الصيحة يا رسول الله قال هدة فى النصفمن رمضان ليلة الجمعة فتكون هدة توقظ النائم وتقعد القائم وتخرج العواتق من خدورهنفى ليلة جمعة فى سنة كثيرة الزلازل والبرد فإذا وافق شهر رمضان فى تلك السنة ليلة الجمعةفإذا صليتم الفجر من يوم الجمعة فى النصف من رمضان فادخلوا بيوتكم وأغلقوا أبوابكموسدوا كواكم ودثروا أنفسكم وسدوا آذانكم فإذا أحسستم بالصيحة فخروا لله سجدا وقولواسبحان القدوس سبحان القدوس ربنا القدوس فإنه من فعل ذلك نجا ومن لم يفعل هلك

Hadits ini terdapat dalamkitab Al Fitan, karya Nu’aim bin Hammad, Juz. 1, Hal. 228, No. 638. Jugakitab Kanzul ‘Ummal, karya Imam Alauddin Al Muttaqi Al Hindi No. 39627.

Sanad hadits tersebut sebagai berikut, berkata Nu’aim bin Hammad:

حَدَّثَنَا‪ أَبُو عُمَرَ عَنِ ابْنِ لَهِيعَةَ قَالَ : حَدَّثَنِيعَبْدُ الْوَهَّابِ بْنُ حُسَيْنٍ عَنْ مُحَمَّدِ بْنِ ثَابِتٍ‪الْبُنَانِيِّ عَنْ أَبِيهِ عَنِ الْحَارِثِالْهَمْدَانِيِّ عَنِ ابْنِ مَسْعُودٍ، رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُ عَنِ النَّبِيِّ‪صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ قَالَ

Berkata kepada kami Abu Umar, dari Ibnu Luhai’ah,dia berkata: berkata kepadaku Abdul Wahhab bin Husain, dari Muhammadbin Tsabit Al Bunani, dari ayahnya, dari Al Haarits Al Hamdani,dari Ibnu Mas’ud Radhiallahu ‘Anhu, dari Nabi Shallallahu ‘Alaihi waSallam: ... (lalu disebut hadits di atas)

Hadits ini memiliki banyak cacat, yakni pada semuaperawinya –kecuali Ibnu Mas’ud Radhiallalhu ‘Anhu:

1. Nu’aim bin Hammad

Beliau termasuk seorang imam, beliaulah yang menyusunkitab Al Fitan sendiri, tetapi para imam hadits telahmengkritiknya dengan tajam. Tentang Beliau dan kitab Al Fitan,Imam Adz Dzahabi berkata:

لا يجوز لاحد أن يحتج به، وقد صنف كتاب " الفتن" فأتى فيه بعجائب ومناكير.

“Tidak boleh bagi seorang pun berhujjah dengannya, dan Dia telah menyusun kitabAl Fitan, yang di dalamnya terdapat banyak keanehan dan kemungkaran.” (AsSiyar A’lamin Nubala, 10/609)

Imam An Nasa’i mengatakan: “Dia orang yang lemah (dhaif).” Imam Al Azdi mengatakan: “Dia termasuk orang yang memalsukan hadits demimembela sunah.” Imam Al ‘Abbas bin Mush’ab mengatakan dalam Tarikh-nya:“Dia memalsukan sebah buku untuk membantah kaum Jahmiyah.” Oleh karenanyaImam Adz Dzahabi mengatakan tentangnya: “Salah satu imam dunia, yang memilikikelemahan dalam haditsnya.” (Lihat semua dalam Mizanul I’tidal,4/267-269)

Ada yang menilainya jujur dan terpercaya, sepertiImam Yahya bin Ma’in, Imam Ahmad, dan Imam Al ‘Ijli, dan Imam Al Bukhari pernahmengambil hadits darinya. (Ibid) Namun dalam kitab yang lain ImamIbnu Ma’in pernah mengkritiknya.

Dalam As Siyar disebut oleh Imam Adz Dzahabi,menurut Imam Al ‘Abbas bin Mush’ab bahwa Nu’aim bin Hammad telah memalsukansatu buku untuk membantah Imam Abu Hanifah dan Muhammad bin Al Hasan, sertamemalsukan 13 buku untuk membantah kelompok Jahmiyah.

Shalih Al Jazarah dan Az Zuhri mengatakan, Nu’aim binHammad adalah seorang yang memiliki banyak hadits-hadits munkar yang tidak bisadiikuti. Imam Yahya bin Ma’in ditanya tentang haditsnya Nu’aim bin Hammad,beliau menjawab: “haditsnya bukan apa-apa (maksudnya jangan dianggap, pen).”

Ibnu Hammad Ad Daulabi mengatakan: “Nu’aim bin Hammaddhaif.” Ahmad bin Syu’aib, Ibnu Hammad, dan lainnya mengatakan: “Diamemalsukan hadits demi membela sunah, dan memalsukan hikayat para ulama tentangfitnahnya Abu Hanifah, semua adalah dusta.” Imam An Nasa’i mengatakan:“Dia telah memasuki batas sebagai orang yang tidak boleh dijadikan hujjah.”

Imam Ibnu Hibban berkata tentang dia: “Suka salah danbimbang.” Ibnu Yunus mengatakan: “Dia meriwayatkan hadits-hadits munkar dariorang-orang yang bisa dpercaya.” (Lihat semua dalam Siyar A’lamin Nubala,10/595 – 611)

2. Abu Umar

Inilah cacat kedua. Abu Umar, dia adalah Hammad binWaqid Al ‘Isya Ash Shafar. Beliau adalah guru dari Nu’aim bin Hammad.

Abu Umar Hammad bin Waqid ini telah didhaifkan paraulama. Imam Yahya bin Ma’in mengatakan: “dhaif.” Imam Al Bukhariberkata: “munkarul hadits – haditsnya munkar.” Imam Abu Zur’ah dan lainnya:“Layyin –lemah.” Imam Al Fallas mengatakan: “Banyak salah dan wahm(bimbang/ragu).” (Lihat Al Mizan, 1/600)

3. Ibnu Lahi’ah

Beliau adalah rawi yang terkenal kelemahannya, yakniburuk pada sisi hapalannya, khususnya setelah buku-bukunya terbakar. Ishaq binIsa mengatakan kitab-kitabnya terbakar pada tahun 169H.

Diceritakan bahwa Imam Yahya bin Said Al Qaththan sama sekali tidak maumenganggap hadits Ibnu Luhai’ah. Imam Abdurrahman bin Mahdi mengatakan:“Saya tidak membawakan haditsnya sedikit atau banyak.” Imam Muslim mencertakanbahwa Waki’, Yahya, dan Ibnu Mahdi meninggalkan hadits Ibnu Lahi’ah. ImamAn Nasa’i mengatakan: “Laisa bitsiqah – bukan orang terpercaya.” Abdurrahmanbin Kharrasy mengatakan: “Jangan ditulis haditsnya.” Abu Zur’ah dan Yahyabin Ma’in mengatakan: “Tidak bisa dijadikan hujjah.” Abu Ishaq Al Jauzajaanimengatakan: “Haditsnya tidak memiliki cayaha, tidak bisa dijadikan hujah, danjangan diikuti.” (Lengkapnya lihat As Siyar, 8/11-31)

4. Abdul Wahhab bin Husain

Imam Al Hakim berkata tentang beliau: “Majhuul –tidak dikenal.” (Al Mustadrak No. 8590), Al Hafizh Ibnu Hajarjuga berkata tentang beliau: “Majhuul .” (Lisanul Mizan, 4/87)

5. Muhammad bin Tsaabit Al Bunani

Imam Yahya bin Ma’in mengatakan: “Laisa biqawwi– tidak kuat.” Imam Abu Hatim mengatakan: “Tidak bisa dijadikan hujah danhaditsnya munkar.” Abu Zur’ah berkata: “Layyin – lemah.” (ImamAbdurrahman bin Abi Hatim, Al Jarh wat Ta’dil, 7/217)

Imam An Nasa’i mengatakan: “Dhaif. Imam Ibnu‘Adi mengatakan: “haditsnya tidak bisa diikuti.” Imam Al Bukhari mengatakan:“Padanya ada yang pertimbangkan.” (Mizanul I’tidal, 3/495)

6. Al Haarits Al Hamdani

Dia adalah Al A’war (buta sebelah matanya). Kun-yahnyaadalah Abu Zuhair. Dia juga lemah, bahkan sebagian menuduhnya sebagaipendusta.

Asy Sya’bi berkata: “Bercerita kepadaku Al Haarits AlA’war, dan dia adalah Kadzdzaab – pendusta.” Ibrahim berkata: “Diatertuduh (sebagai pendusta).” Ibnu Al Madini berkata: “Kadzdzaab.” Yahyabin Ma’in mengatakan: “Dhaif.” An Nasa’i berkata: “Laisabilqawwi – bukan orang kuat.” Ad Daruquthni mengatakan: “Dhaif.” Yahya Al Qaththan mengatakan: “Umumnya apa yang diriwayatkannya tidak terjaga.”Ibnu Hibban berkata: “Beliau orang yang ekstrim tasyayyu’ (condong kesyi’ah), dan haditsnya lemah.” (Mizanul I’tidal, 1/435-437)

Maka, betapa mengenaskan riwayat ini! Seandainya satuperawi saja yang bermasalah sudah cukup menjatuhkan hadits ini, namun haditsini ada enam perawi yang bermasalah, bahkan beberapa di antara mereka adayang disebut sebagai pemalsu hadits dan pendusta. Oleh karenanya para ulamaseperti Imam Adz Dzahabi dalam At Talkhish, Imam Ibnul Qayyim dalam AlManar Al Munif, Syaikh Al Albani dalam Adh Dhaifah menyebutkan bahwaini adalah hadits palsu (maudhu’), dan hendaknya kita berhati-hatiterhadap riwayat yang semisal ini. (Lihat Syaikh Abdullah Al Faqih, FatawaAsy Syabakah Al Islamiyah No. 41701. Syaikh Al Albani, As Silsilah AdhDhaifah No. 6471)

Jadi, alangkah baiknya jika kita mencari tahu dulukebenaran dari suatu berita sebelum menyampaikannya kepada orang lain. Hal inidapat menghindarkan kita dari hal-hal yang menjurus ke dosa besar yaitu fitnah.Memang sudah di riwayatkan bahwa di akhir zaman akan banyak fitnah bermunculandi muka bumi. Maka berserah dirilah kepada Allah swt dan tetap beribadah sesuaidengan yang sudah di tentukanNya. Syukron Katsiro

Sumber : http://faridnuman.blogspot.com/2011/11/hadits-huru-hara-di-bulan-ramadhan.html

Me and Marriage 2

2011-12-28T20:51:00.002-05:00

So, if someday I will marry the cutest,kindest, the most handsome man in the world – there are a bunch of things Iwanna do :

#dear my future husband DO NOT FREAK OUT – Think andREAD THIS before you propose me to be your forever wife, this is only once in alife time so could you please make it come true xoxo *Kiss Hug :P

1. The only ONE inthe world

Before you propose me you shouldhave know that I just want to be the ONLY WIFE you have. Jadi kalo kamu emangdari awal niat punya istri lebih dari satu DO NOT count me in, aku ga mauberbagi suami sama orang lain kalau bagi- bagi duit rela deh ok!

2. Guest List

Ini mungkin bakal jadi haltersulit selama persiapan pernikahan ( udah sering nyiapin pernikahansekeluargaan) buat aku. Kenapa? Karena aku kenal banyak orang, semua pernahmemberikan pengaruh buat kehidupan aku yang Alhamdulillah banget sekarang ini,terus bukan anak pejabat yang bisa ngebatesin undangan tega-tegaan gitu tapijuga bukan anak konglomerat yang bisa ngundang ribuan orang juga, jadi gimanadong? :P

Can you imagine how manypeople I should invite on my wedding day!

Ini belum semuanya -____-'

First nih dari keluarga Mamakusendiri yang sodaranya aja lebih dari 10 orang beranak, bercucu, bercicit yangsetiap acara nikahan itu kalau mau poto keluarga kameranya sampai ga muat,panggungnya ampe mau roboh saking rempongnya itu baru dari keluarga nyokap udahlebih dari 200 orang

Terus dari keluarga Papahyang notabene dari mereka lah hak perwalian nikah harus di berikan (Karna papahudah meninggal jadi keluarga dari papah yang harusnya jadi wali yang menikahkanaku) Dan itu samaaaa aja banyaknya ama keluarga mamah yang seabrek2 itu soitunglah 200 orang lebih juga

Temen-temen Papah dari yangorang yang aku kenal banget deket ama Papah sampai yang tau aku tapi aku gakkenal, dari kalangan pejabat sampai yang udah pensiun. Bayangin itu ada berapayang masih panjang umur sampai sekarang, bisa-bisa se Kaltim pada dateng *tepokmuka. Apa coba kata mereka- anak semata wayangnya Pak Nur nikah “Gw Gak DiUndang??? Serius LOH?” :P Lagian mereka semua udah banyak banget bantuinkeluarga kita apalagi pasca papah meninggal dunia.

Temen-temen Mamah, okey yangsatu ini aku masih bisa cut2 sedikit. Nyokap orangnya gak tegaan juga pastisemua yg kenal baik ama dia pasti diundang cuma aku bisa pastiin yang ini gakmungkin lebih dari 200 deh. Trus aku mau deh Ustadz Aam, Ustadz Yusuf Mansyurdatang juga

Okey, itu baru dari pihak keluarga loh yasekarang bayangin orang-orang yang aku kenal yang harus aku undang!

Aku pasti harus ngundanganak2 ATS ESQ dari Ayah, Bunda, Fosma, Teens, Kids, LC, Trainer, yang diSamarinda aja udah 100 lebih terus ATS yang kenal aku di Jakarta, trainer2 yangdeket sama aku kalau bisa Om Ary G ama Oma-Opa juga dateng, mentok juga 200orang

Harus ngundang temen2 jamansekolah SD, Spansa, Smansa, Smaridasa, AFS chapter Samarinda. Yaaa Salaam itubuanyaaaaknya minta ampun! Bubuhan Ipa 3 aja nih ya udah 40an belum lagi anak2MB Sinar Bahana yg dlu sering bareng2 mulu, belum lagi anak2 tekwondo,guru-gurunya, kepala sekolahnya yang semuanya udah pada baik banget sama aku,kenal sama aku.

Allright udah sebanyak itu aja masih belumselesai.

Aku harus ngundang anak2Jayabaya dari anak-anak ZeroNine, Junior2, Senior2, Dosen2, Staff sampaiRektorat yang kenal sama aku ( Pertanyaannya siapaaaa yg gak kenal sama aku ygsuaranya menggelegar kemana2 ini ??????) coba bayangin tanpa mereka ini gakbisa apa-apa aku sebagai mahasiswa. Angkatan aku aja ada 40 orang lebihtambahin aja semuanya bisa jadi 200 juga

Kudu harus ngundang anak2 AFSminimal AFS 51 yang 100an orang dari seluruh penjuru negeri itu, terus akupengen Kak Taufiq Ismail, Kak Tanri Abeng, Kak Arif Rahman, Kak Imam Prasodjo, KakNajwa Shihab, dateng.

Trus dari U.S Embassy Jakartajuga dari semua diplomat-diplomat yang aku kerja bareng Mr. Ted, Ms. Corrinne,Mr. Arend dll sampai ke staff2nya kayaMba Renny yg udah ngasih banyak banget event!

Dari kantor kudu ngundangorang-orang LPIA yang udah ngasih kerjaan ma gaji yang cukup buat hidup buat BuTika emaknya Sallsa sekeluarga apa lagi.

Temen-temen mahasiswa darikampus lain terutama anak2 dari PNMHII yang terus2an ketemu di event2 HI diJakarta dan sekitarnya yg udah ngobrol siang malem kadang bantuin ngasi ideskripsi.

Terakhir ini optional itu pun kalau merekabisa dateng.

Orang2 yang udah jadikeluarga kedua aku selama di Amerika. Om- Tante dari KBRI Washington, DC dariPak Dubes yang lama ( itu juga klo beliau masi inget aku) bisa jadi ngundangPak Dino Patti Djalal, Om Dutamardin Umar, Om Kumis ama istrinya, Om Arif WorldBank ama Mba Mira, Mba Dewi, Bunda Intan ma Om Iwan yang pahlawan banget, Mba Lina, Mba Sri, Mba Mey, orang-orangIndonesia yang udah nyelametin hidup aku di negeri orang deh yang kenal samaaku ( Pertanyaannya lagi siapaaaa yg gak kenal akuuu? Wong aku klo bisadioper-oper ke rumah mereka buat sleepover)

Trus anak-anak AFS DC Area dari seluruh negara, HostFamily, Mom-Dad- Derrick-Dorean Nanny- sepupu2 aku tante2 ma om aku, apalagianak2 paling gila bareng di Walls kayaVictor E, Victor A, Juan G, Ana, LC, Camillo, Micaela, dll yg buanyak itu terusanak2 Walls yang kenal sama aku dari teacher, staff, junior , sophomore,senior, yang notabene lagi2 gak ada yg gak kenal sama aku.

Intinyakalo mikirin Guest List lebih dari 2000 orang yang ada mati duluan sebelummikirin budget nikahnya HAHAHAHA! Itu nikahan apa training ESQ di Senayan?

3. Prewed andWedding Video Photography

Aku udah pernah deal2an amaDian Pelangi di twitter kalau aku mau bikin Photo ama Video Pre Wedding ama pasprosesi Weddingnya ama dia. Kebayang dong punya poto ama video sekerennikahannya Dian Pelangi :D Terus aku mau baju2nya dari Dian semua deh dari poto, Akad Nikah ama Resepsi, yang pasti resepsi aku mau perpaduan Batik ama Maroongtu atau coklat, terus aku ga mau ada pelaminan konsepnya Garden Party gitu deh:D

4. The Best GiftEver

Aku mau nikahannya kayanikahan Bobby kemaren. Jadi seserahannya sponsored by Apple inc, Guess,Victoria Secret, Wardah, Hermes, Canon kalo bisa sih kaya Kak Hans di depanpintu ada Jaguar nginclong ama mas kawinnya lengkap :P ( ga ada yg gak mungkintoh?buktinya ada)

5. World TourHoneymoon

Hahahahha! This is part of my own dream setelah nikah akujuga mau tetep keliling dunia so everytime everywhere I go as long as I’m with youI call it honeymoon :D I want to always hold your hand and walk with you!

Well, yang baca pasti udahgaruk2 kepala dari tadi, apa mungkin udah muntah aja hehehe. Seems muluk2 sihtapi ini sesuai kenyataan kok, kaya guest list itu emang orang2 yg aku kenal,perjanjian aku ama Dian Pelangi, seserahan yang pernah dikasih Bobby ama KaHans trus impian aku keliling dunia.

Itu kenapa aku belum maunikah cepet2 dulu, I have all of this dream and I wanna make it come true. Akumau kerja dulu yang bener selagi aku masih bisa ngumpulin duitnya buat semuaini, aku gak mau ngekhayal berharap2 punya suami milioner doang klo aku bisakenapa harus berharap orang lain, kalaupun ada calon suami milioner belum tentujuga kali mau ama aku yang begini doang hahahha!

Yang paling penting itu calon suami yangbisa bikin bahagia di dunia n di akhirat, rejeki masih Allah swt yang ngaturkita cuma bisa usaha doang, tapi ibadah itu kita sendiri yang ngatur kita mauapa engga ngelakuinnya, klo mau di sayang Allah swt kita buktiin dulu pantes gabuat di sayang. Yang penting bisa jadi imam di keluarga bisa bahagiain Mamah,bisa nuntun anak jadi anak Sholeh.

Kalau bukan karena pengenngejalanin hidup sama orang yang kaya gitu buat apa juga aku nikah kan, mendingsingle happy :P

*I’m sorry about a lot of things you have to deal with. But I recognize the sacrifice. And I appreciate it, future husband. And I appreciate you not divorcing me the first time you see me talk to my stuff :P .Ps. I Love You!

Also Read : Me and Marriage 1

Me and Marriage 1

2011-12-28T19:15:00.001-05:00

TheHoly Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said:
"AMuslim man can acquire no benefit after Islam greater than a Muslim wife whomakes him happy when he looks at her, obeys him when he commands her, andprotects him when he is away from her in herself and in his property."(Quotes on marriage from Nasa'i)

Some peoplethink I’m too young to think about marriage. Well the fact that I’m the onlygirl in my whole family yang belum nikah sama sekali says No. Setelah itusemakin banyak aja temen-temen aku yang seumuran pada nikah.

Well akuudah sering banget ngeliat prosesi nikah dari persiapan, ijab kabul sampaiselesai. It was so beautiful ! ga ada prosesi yang lebih indah dari prosesipernikahan, mungkin karena ada banyak malaikat yang medoakan pasangan yangmelangsungkan pernikahan.

How about me?

Akusebenernya salah satu orang yang menganut pemikiran anti nikah muda. Bukanapa-apa sih, I love to be different than anyone else especially in my family.Berhubung semua cewek di keluarga aku udah pada nikah kecuali yang masih padabocah-bocah, aku jadi bosen aja ngeliatnya :P moso aku harus ikut-ikutan merekajuga, nikah terus rempong hamil rempong melahirkan rempong ngurus rumah nguruskeperluan anak ngasuh anak teriak-teriak ngomelin anak. Okay ntar-ntar dulu dehaku mau nikmatin dulu jadi tante sekaligus belajar biar ga bloon2 amat jadiistri orang.

Selain itubanyak yang pengen aku accomplish, I’m a dreamer dan aku suka gregetn kalo itubelum kesampaian, because I believe in my dream, some of them really are cometrue aku punya banyak impian and marriage wasn’t on my list so far.

Trus hal yang palingpenting, nikah buat aku bukan cuma ketemu orang yg tepat for you to spent themost of your life with him. Buat aku nikahadalah ibadah,sama kaya naik haji nikah juga kudu punya persiapan, butuh niat butuh duitbutuh perlengkapan butuh ilmu butuh tau mau ngapain aja n harus gimana aja. Iwant a perfect marriage sebagaimana aku mau ibadah sholat dll nya aku sempurna.

Kayanyahampir semua orang tau klo aku belum mau nikah, well aku gak mau sesumbar sihsiapa tau malah aku yang paling duluan nikah daripada mereka hahahhaa, Yangpasti klo udah sampai jodohnya ya nikah klo ga ada ya ga nikah juga ga masalah,I’m not afraid of being single, apa coba yg perlu ditakutin atau dimaluin,Mamah aja nih survive hidup as a single mom and I want to be successful womentoo someday even if I have to be alone forever.

So, if someday I will marry the cutest, kindest, the mosthandsome man in the world – there are a bunch of things I wanna do :

to be continue... Me and Marriage 2

ZeroNine Goes To ICRC Discussion

2011-12-01T18:12:00.001-05:00

ZeroNine with Pak Denny

ZeroNine

The audiences

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Me asking question

My classmatesZeroNine from Universitas Jayabaya and I were attending Roundtable discussion organized by InternationalCommittee of the Red Cross 17 November 2011 in Redtop Hotel Jakarta. Thediscussion was about Cyberwarfare : How does IHL regulate it?

The speakers were Mr.Aswin Sasongko From Direktorat Jenderal Aplikasi Informatika ( Ministry ofCommunication and Information) , Mr. Kusnanto Anggoro (The University ofNational Defense) , Mr.Richard Desgagne (ICRC) and Ms.Emily Crawford(University of Sydney).

First Vincent Nicod from ICRC delivered his speech, here isthe summary:

-Long before Henry, the great figures including religiousleaders already have the idea to limit the tools and how to fight

- He quoted Abu Bakar AshSiddiq : “ When you fight for a glory of God, act like a man never turning back…”

- ICRC doesn’t know theworst effect from cyber warfare but principles of distinction and proportionateshould remain in respect

- InternationalHumanitarian Law (IHL) provides adequate guarantees for the protection ofcivilians, including the threat posed by cyber warfare

The second personwho delivered the speech was Prof. Dr. Budi Susilo.S Governor of NationalDefense Institution, here is the summary :

- Military threats are Defense and Security

1. Threat to trigatra elements:

geographic: Indonesia is very strategic position

Protecting boundaries with information technology

natural resource potential of IT

population data as a strategy and IT security systems

2. Aspects pancagatra

by IT threatens the destruction of the cyber world of themilitary

-Defense resilience: IT systems to cripple the enemy,demoralizing war in moral, political, etc.

Application of humanitarian law:

At the beginning of the 20-21 century we should think oftechnology in the international rules in cyber attacks, cyber terrorism andcyber auctation

The principle of distinction: the distinction between societyand civilian objects and military

Recommendation:

1. It is important for every country uphold humanitarian law

2. Need of international agreements in cyber warfare to beclearly established law

3. Cooperation at the institutional level national defenseinstitution, universities, experts etc. as well as the executive, legislative,etc.

- Mastering of technology is now a strength parameters of a country.

- The use of IT as a means or method of warfare is a threat to theresilience national defense and security.

Next the firstspeaker of the discussion was Mr. Aswin Sasongko From Direktorat JenderalAplikasi Informatika ( Ministry of Communication and Information). He wastalking about Operational Reality of Cyber Warfare. Here is the summary :

-Cyberspace : Access(phone) , networks (wifi, fiber, cable), applications, contents

- Almost all who derive real space can be transformed intocyberspace.

- What is prohibited by international humanitarian law in realspace should also be prohibited from cyber space.

- Moral values & ethicsin real space must also be upheld in cyberspace. Avoid permissiveness

- There are attempts to create a cyber space (the virtual worldwithout borders) but still a discussion. Indonesia has yet to be.

_ Common types ofcyber attack in Indonesia : Network scanning, port scanning, vulnerabilityscanning, web deface attacking and vulnerability crawling

The Second speakerof the discussion was Mr. Kusnanto Anggoro (The University of NationalDefense). He was talking about humanitarian aspects of cyber warfare. Here isthe summary :

- Cyber attacks can reply was associated with IHL should have apolitical purpose

- Not all cyber attacks, including cyber warfare. There are 2elements to qualify cyber attacks as cyber warfare: political objectives & deliberateness.Without political objectives it becomes Cyber Security.

The Third speakerof the discussion was Mr.Richard Desgagne (ICRC). He was talking about IHL andCyber Warfare. Here is the summary :

- There is no mention specifically about cyber warfare in the IHL.

- The basic principles still apply such distinction,proportionality in cyber warfare. Eg hospitals should not be attacked.

- So cyber warfare operations must respect the existing provisionsto protect the citizens & civilian objects.

- It is difficult to trace anyone who violates IHL in cyberwarfare.

The Fourth speakerof the discussion was Ms.Emily Crawford (University of Sydney). She was talkingabout State response to Cyber Warfare. Here is the summary :

- Countries such as America, UK & the Netherlands already havestrategies for coping with cyber warfare.

- What's happening now, the state tends to develop defensivestrategies in cyber warfare.

-Fitra Elnurianda

I Am An Exchange Student

2011-12-01T05:43:00.001-05:00

I am an exchange student.

How do you know what is a dream if you never accomplished one.

How do you know what is an adventure if you never took part in one.

How do you know what is anguish if you never said goodbye to your family and friends with your eyes full of tears.

How do you know what is being desperate, if you never arrived in a place alone and could not understand a word of what everyone else was saying.

How do you know what is diversity if you never lived under the same roof with people from all over the world?

How do you know what is tolerance, if you never had to get used to something different even if you didn’t like it.

How do you know what is autonomy, if you never had the chance to decide something by yourself?

How do you know what it means to grow up, if you never stopped being a child to start a new course?

How do you know what is to be helpless, if you never wanted to hug someone and had a computer screen to prevent you from doing it.

How do you know what is distance, if you never, looking at a map, said “ I am so far away”.

How do you know what is a language, if you never had to learn one to make friends.

How do you know what is patriotism, if you never shouted “ I love my country” holding a flag in your hands.

How do you know what is the true reality, if you never had the chance to see a lot of them to make one.

How do you know what is an opportunity, if you never caught one.

How do you know what is pride, if you never experienced it for yourself at realizing how much you have accomplished.

How do you know what is to seize the day, if you never saw the time running so fast.

How do you know what is a friend, if the circumstances never showed you the true ones.

How do you know what is a family, if you never had one that supported you unconditionally .

How do you know what are borders, if you never crossed yours , to see what there was on the other side.

How do you know what is imagination, if you never thought about the moment when you would go back home.

How do you know the world, if you have never been an exchange student?

*From All of Exchange Student Around The World

Dedicated to All of My AFS-YES 2008-2009 Friends in the Worldwide

Need Time

2011-12-01T02:29:00.000-05:00

I thought being in relationship could change the situation, the situation when you are single into something better. Actually it's so hard to understand other people and let them be a part of your life. Especially when you took to long being single and suddenly have to be in relationship with someone.

First, you have to understand the one you choose to be in relationship with. You have to know his background, what kind of activities he likes, what kind of music he used to listen to, his style, is he fit to be your partner? but nobody is perfect. He totally has something that you don't like, so you have to whether accept for whoever he is or stop thinking that he might be the one you choose.

Second, when you already being into a relationship, it's totally a new world for you. Can you imagine you were always think about your ownself , share things with nobody, control your own activities, your phone rings only in urgent condition, but now is total reverse condition, your world seems to be upside down.

So you will face so many problem and probably you will start to regret your decision as no longer single anymore, you used to enjoy your "me" time but now you have someone exactly next to you.

Or maybe you expected something when you are in relationship, something you wish that could be happening in your relationship too after seeing your friend's relationship. After that you will start to disappointed with your own relationship. For example you saw your friend's boyfriend always there when she needs him or when she has a problem to solve but in your own relationship your boyfriend makes his job as a priority so he can't always be there when you need him.

So, never expected something will be better if you are in relationship. Sometimes being single is not bad at all. Being single is not because you can't find someone to be your partner but it is all about valuing your own life.

You learn a lot from being single and you will also learn a lot of things from being in relationship. You learn to understand people, how to share things that you used to keep on yourself, learn not to let your ego comes first, learn how to give affection, learn to solve problem, learn that nothing is going to be as perfect as you think it could be, learn how to be more patience.

You need time to learn all of that. It will not happen that fast. You and your partner have to built a good communication so you will understand each other, you will find a solution to every problem you face.

Goodluck

My Hijab Story

2011-10-19T13:08:00.002-04:00

Hi Guys,

Assalamualaikum :)

Now it’s time for me to share my story about what makes me want to wear hijab.

I thought it was started with a funny and weird story.

My Mom and Dad went to do Hajj together in 2000. I was just 8 years old at that time so they didn’t bring me to come with them. After they came back from Hajj that was the first time I knew what a hijab is. I recognized my mom wear hijab after Hajj, hijab at that time was just a muslim dress that I wear just for celebrate Ied’l Fitr’ . But after I saw my Mom wears hijab I asked her to wear hijab too when I was 9years old. I still remember that my Mom said that I’m not ready to wear hijab because I was too young.

On school vacation we went to Jakarta. We went to one of the biggest mall there. My Mom and I took a look at Muslim fashion booth, suddenly I saw a group of family. They were a Mom who wears hijab, a Dad and 3 daughters who all of them were wear hijab too. One of them was nearly under 5 years old. I don’t know what I feel, the thing I still remember was when I looked at that little girl who wore hijab I feel ashamed with myself. I wasn’t wear hijab, I wore short sleeves t-shirt with a jeans. Suddenly I locked myself inside the fitting room until that little girl disappeared with all of her family. My Mom was trying to find me, from the fitting room I shouted that I don’t wanna get myself out from it until she buy me a hijab for me to wear. I was feeling so guilty with myself by not wearing hijab and I told my mom from that day that I want to wear hijab just like that little girl. So there’s no reason for me not to wear hijab even I was too young for it.

Alhamdulillah after that event Allah swt gave my father rizqi for me and my Mom to go Umroh together. I admit that I wasn’t really understand what I’m doing but I follow all the instruction during Umroh. It was an incredible experience for me I spent a long time on the plane from Jakarta to Jeddah. I spent night at Jeddah at Marriot hotel and the next day after that we went to Madinah. We visited Masjid Nabawi and Prophet Muhammad pbuh. I was crying, everyone was crying because I believe I felt like prophet Muhammad pbuh still there, all of us miss him. After that we do Umroh from Madinah to Mecca. We spent day in Mecca to pray. I also visited the place to do Lontar Jumroh and the place where Prophet Adam and Hawa met in earth at the first time. Overall I’m so grateful that Allah swt gave me chance to do umroh even in my young age.

We never know what Allah swt plan’s are. Me and neither my Mom never expected that the time after I celebrate my 10th birthday right 18 days after that my father passed out. Me and my Mom was at home in Samarinda but my Father was in Jakarta. My mom was still on the phone at around 3am that day, I was suddenly sleep-talking when they were on the phone but my Mom didn’t give me chance to talk with him. Noone knew that was the very last time we could hear my father voice. He passed out at around 4-5 am. He was totally in a good health but Allah swt love him and want him to be next to Allah swt.

That was totally my hard times. Losing someone you love the most when you were just only 10 years old. When the time goes by, I learnt a lot from that. That nothing in this world stays forever, but there is still Allah swt The One and Only who will always stay next to you.

I’m not perfect, hijab doesn’t change you from human being who always do mistakes to an Angel, no! absolutely not!. I did uncountable mistake in my whole life even when I wear hijab. I faced thousand of trouble in life such as people try to take my hijab away from my head, people judge me for every single mistake I made, people treat me like I don’t even exist, people ask me to take off my hijab if I want to get a job, people don’t allow me to sing or even do whatever I love to do and all kind of things. But it doesn’t make me give up on wearing hijab. I even took it off when I was losing my mind, but Allah swt always keep me on the right track. I believe Allah swt is the one who makes me wear hijab, no one told me to wear it. When I get older I realized that hijab is A MUST thing to do as a muslim girl. It’s written in Alquran and Prophet Muhammad pbuh also explained it in Hadits. So if you really love Allah swt and The Prophet you don’t need any reason to make you do it because you HAVE to wear it.

I was kinda upset to the girls who wear hijab but doesn’t follow that has been written on Al-quran and Hadist. I’m not judging the way people wear hijab but if Allah swt tell you to cover your body , cover your hair, head , neck till your breast, why don’t you do it? We can’t use fashion as an excuse to not wearing hijab as the way it supposed to be. If you wear hijab and don’t even follow Allah swt and Prophet Muhammad pbuh instruction and someone out there follow you, you will be the one to blame, the bad example.

So I wish Allah swt protect us for every good things we do. Once again, I’m not perfect even I’m wearing hijab but I’m still on my way trying to make myself better day by day and try to not doing any other stupid mistake, I learnt from the past and learn from the others. So, this is me telling my story, I hope I can inspire you like I was inspired by other muslim from all over the world.

May Allah bless our life and our age :)

Have a nice day you all!

Allah swt Heard Me

2011-10-14T09:06:00.001-04:00

Assalamualaikum everyone J

I was looking for a job lately, it because I don’t get any English class to teach since I was out of town for Ramadhan days-off. So I started writing CVs, it wasn’t that hard but I don’t know how to write it, then I decided to just search it on Google. After I got all the papers on me, first place I went to was KFC Cempaka Putih. I’m looking for the Manager and someone showed up, I told her that I want to apply to work there, she said that I have to go to KFC Kebon Jeruk, that’s so faaar away so I decided to do it some other time.

After that I went to Coffee Break Café, I really want to work there but when I asked the Manager, she said she can’t accept someone who wears Hijab to work at her place. I was totally mad for a hundred times someone treats me that way. Well I decided to give my CV to Gramedia Matraman, someone there told me to give the CV to the security and someone will text me if I get accepted.

Last, I went to 7-eleven Matraman. The security told me to come again on Monday early morning to do interview. I don’t know what to do what to wear etc. but I decided to come to the interview on Monday. They almost told me that I wasn’t registered for an interview, but then it was a mistake so I can do interview. I was waiting from 6am to 10 am until I got called with another 100 people who apply for it. After they called my name they let me come into the room at second floor. Someone from HRD section gave us basic math test. The test was about math stories and we have to find the solution. The second test was psiko test. Overall it was easy. They told me they will call me in 3 days if I get accepted.

It’s been 3 days they didn’t call. It means I didn’t get accepted. I got disappointed. But the next day after someone called me she asked me whether or not I can teach in LPIA again. I’m so happy. So this is the decision Allah swt made for me. I was looking for work everywhere, but at the and I’m back teaching English for LPIA again. Money come to mama :P Alhamdulillah....

My Hijab Style Portofolio

2011-09-22T02:17:00.001-04:00

Yay!!! This is my first portofolio. Well i thought self-potrait will be easy. I have to prepare for a tripod and put my camera on it, set it to timer and set the angle. i have to run back and forth background-camera-background-camera.

Fiuh, but the result came out nice anyway.

Can't wait to take another style :sD