am I on the right track?

Hi Bloggers?? wat's up?

I can't sleep (Again!) . Everytime i try to sleep, i just keep rolling up and down with eyes closing. No matter how tired i am i still can't sleep. Seems like my whole body reject it.

I know there is something i can't rid out of my mind. This is about dream i've been dreaming about.

Seems like i've been torturing myself watching a bunch of successful singer on Youtube. They were just ordinary people like me at once, lived in a small town around a thousand of people holding their own dream.

am i doing something wrong here? is it wrong for believing this dream might be come true someday? I believe God has his own plan for me but am I in the right track??

I don't know

why i keep questioning myself a question i can't even answer it? why this is happen to me?

i'm not easy to give up but this, totally hard for me.

Why there's noone out there care about me, about my life, about what i love to do with my life, about my dream, about all my good ideas, about my charity program, about ME want TO MAKE A WORLD PEACE THROUGH MY MUSIC!! WHY!

why there's noone out there pay attention about what i gotta say on my twitter or my facebook or myspace even youtube video. WHY?

I'm tired of being all alone in this world while there's a lot of good thing i can do. Why nobody ever listen to me? Even my mom! I wish my father still alive, hug me and listen to every single word i say.

I love being different but i hate being ignore. Why i have all of this dreams spinning around in my head without knowing how to make it happen. I've been work so hard practicing, promoting, sending my demo or everything i can do ALL ALONE. Just because there are a lot of people done this and they got it.

I don't know what to say. This is my dream. What should i do then?

Why Justin Bieber, Yunalis Zarai, Alyssa Bernal, Savannah Outen got it all?

will i become one of them?

is this just a dream that i have to wake up and realize that this is won't happen in the real life?

Why there's noone helping me out to make me special?

I know, i'm not rich, i'm an orphan, i don't have someone i can lean on, i have nothing but believe in this world. I believe that someday i can be special, believe that this dream will come true, believe that i'm a waste of space.

am i on the right track?

is my voice good or not? am i deserve this or not? am i talented or not?

What can i do? i really want to give up bu i can't! it won't help anyway.

God ... i'm alone in this world. I've been working so hard, please at least give me something that can draw a smile on my face forever. I'm begging you.