This life isn't real

Okeyy..

You know what! i need more than two weeks to make this pieces become together again.

Yes.. everybody know that we were broke up exactly at the time we supposed to celebrate it.

What makes people knew about it?

Yeah he broke me up through facebook..

Seems like technology todays control our “love” live too

Well , i don’t know exactly why he did that on facebook instead of just reply my messages or pick up my call..

This is how we ended up..

Sad .. yap! Kinda hurt.. yap! Disappointed... yap! Regret ... yap!

Hate... OF COURSE NOT!

Why? Yes.. the question is why?

Because.. i’ve been through this kind of situation before

No.. at that time there wasn’t anybody using facebook instead of friendster

But i never broke up with someone through social networking before, we broke up through  ‘short messages service’

Ok.. i’m not gonna discuss about my EX experience right now.. we gonna discuss about my feelings on the last 3 weeks ago.

You can find out how much i falling in love with him by read all my posting below.

For those who knew me so well, you will understand how hard to make me falling in love with someone. Yeah.. it’s hard

But at that time it’s easy for me to fell over him.

He’s totally my type, my senior at the same faculty, charming, he loves music, he plays guitar.. what else... yeah same like i describe my EX – almost PERFECT to me.

But why and why this is happen to me???

I perfectly fine when he didn’t call me, he didn’t text me or even didn’t have time to think about me. I understand what word “busy” mean is..

But he didn’t break me up because of my fault

He felt guilty over me, it’s hard to explain but he said he didn’t mean to broke my heart. But he did!

Well this last 3 weeks makes me really want to know what’s behind all of this situation.

I figured out that he is STILL IN LOVE with HIS EX GIRFRIEND!

Holly molly guacamole!

Yeah.. i was sending him a message about it

But he denied.. he admitted that yes it’s true that he’s still in love with his GF that broke up with him on July 2010. But it wasn’t the reason he broke up with me.

I can’t even trust him, but why and why my tears keep falling for the last 2 weeks.

Is it because i didn’t even cry for a week after he broke up with me? I don’t know

Thing i know is i still in love with him, i told him everything and seems like he doesn’t even care but he tried to be nice to me..

This stupid act i’ve been acting recently didn’t work the way it suppose to be..

It just make me looks dumber than before

I admitted that, but i hate to lie over my own heart

“I might be dumb but i’m not stupid – Rihanna”

I don’t know what to do right now, but i can’t find give up on my own life dictionary

A lot of people try to make me out of this kind of situation

Nobody can do it..

So i told him to help me, he doesn’t know how either

This is complicated

As complicated as 4 years ago

But i’m not gonna be the stupid person i was

Gotta have to move on, if it’s not today maybe a second, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year after this...