Lost in Love

When you’re falling in love there’s nothing you can do

You can easily become the dumbest person in the world

You can easily crying, mad and hopeless for nothing

This time…

I do

I’m complaining a lot

When I used to stay cool in life

My face full of tears

When I used to not crying at all

This love… I don’t even know

I don’t even understand anyway

The thing is, it is already end here

Don’t ask me why because I don’t really know why

Noone to blame

It just noone staying here, so I can’t keep trying

I’m truly sick of fighting, yelling, crying, upset, or whatever

I don’t even know, is it worth it to do such a thing like that?

The thing I know is …

When you let go of something, it is not easy to get it back

Especially when it comes to heart

I lost mine once

And it felt like I’m losing it

I can’t feel love, I’m so rude, I don’t feel like a human at all

So…

Will I feel the same way now?

I don’t know…

It must be hard to get me back

Because it is painless, fearless

I don’t even feel hurt, sad

I don’t even crying

Even if I’m laughing I can’t feel anything

I’m faking smile,

Try to be strong, I do! because I’m not weak anyway

But there’s an empty place

That supposed to be empty at the very first time

But it was hope, love, believe, future plan there

And I have to clean all of it up

I can’t believe it

Don’t blame me for being hopeless

I don’t believe in love anymore

I don’t wanna be stupid

I wanna be who I wanna be

I don’t have to love, to care or to believe in someone

Because if I do this is what I get now

Im losing myself

Life is hard dude

But I still guarantee life is totally good

You know what

One day I was asking my God

Telling Him, if someday he let go of me or leaves me

It means there will be no future for us

This is the answer

I’m not coming back

For someone who already letting go of me

You just have to responsible for everything you said to me

And silence wasn’t a good answer for that

Never mind

There will be noone replace your place

Because you make me realize

There’s no place for anyone to touch me again

There’s no place for such a thing like trust or whatever

Just ask God to not changing me to become a robot

Because I can’t feel anything

Anything at all

This is my last tear

I will not sing a love song

Or

Write a sweet note about love

Or

Taking a picture about it

This is goodbye.

Is there any second chance?

Let God decide it, not me.