Scriptie Finally Walk Along With Me

 Here comes a time to finally face the last year of my college. Some people say that I’m too fast. It’s the third year of me being a college student and I’m on my way writing my scriptie.

FYI writing scriptie (Thesis in English) for the very first time is the hardest thing in the worldwide!!! Especially when you do not know what do you have to do and what do you have to write in the beginning. I tried to write it as far as I know. I borrowed my senior’s scriptie and bought “how to write scriptie” my lecture’s book. I spent a week sometimes without even sleep at night and had to go to class in the morning. But after attended a scriptie seminar, it was alllllllll eaaaasssyyyyyyy.

After seminar I spent a week writing an outline in Indonesian and English version. It was hard because it is hard for me to find formal word in Bahasa Indonesia. All the people told me that I’m good in English ( actually I’m not but pretending I am) but when I speak Bahasa Indonesia, it’s hard for people to understand. Because I combine my mother language, which is the language I used to speak in my hometown East Kalimantan with the original Bahasa Indonesia. Every word out of my mouth always sounds weird to them. And it’s even weirder when I try to write it down in scientific research essay.

Lucky me I have boyfriend who can be my editor specializing Bahasa Indonesia corrector. He is like a correction pen to my essay. LOL! Sometimes it’s hard for him to understand what I’m trying to say in a sentence too. Well I put all of my effort, my skill, everything to it because this is the very first serious scientific essay I ever write in my life! I wrote down about The Role Of The International Committee Of Red Cross (Icrc) Dealing With Humanitarian Crisis In Armed Conflict In Syria.

It’s even harder to me since I am a perfectionist I want to make no mistake on my very first masterpiece. My lecture said that it is okay to make mistake and I really know about that but the other side of me (go ahead call it EGO) said NO! I have to make this as perfect as I can do. At the end, my lectures supporting me and proud of what I have been doing so far.

At the time I gave my outline paper to my lecture, he said, “ So whom do you want to choose to be your supervisor?” I was shocked because we used to sit back and waiting who’s gonna be our supervisor but this time he asked me who I want to choose. I said well it’s up to him anyway, as long as he gave me super extra ordinary lecture with super smart logical thinking. Finally he chose himself as my supervisor and it such a relief because I adore and love the way he becomes a great person. He also has the same characteristic as me (well that’s what Aries people used to be smart, cool and critics).

It’s not over yet. So I have 2 types of scriptie. The one for my IR Seminar class and the other one is for my final project. I gave them the exact same paper. The first one I gave to my lecture and he said it was amazing and he is on his way correcting things. The other one I gave to the lady who becomes my lecture in IR Seminar class. Do you know what did she do???? She killed me, criticized me, and finished me up in front of all of student in the class. Always disproved my theory and concept illogically and always answer back every time I stick up on my own theory while I believe there is nothing wrong with all of what I wrote down.

The class felt like a grave for half an hour at my seminar session. People keep sending me message to keep my spirit and being patient when she did that to me. It was like a thousand slaps from her. I already know that she doesn’t have broader ideas as the other lectures do. She always stuck on her thought and always thinks her opinion is undoubtable. Look what she has done to my paper :"( !

I was so not in the good mood at all that day. As a perfectionist it’s hard for me for being acceptable and say yes for every mistakes she threw at me while I am pretty sure that was nothing wrong with my paper. My heart broke. Well I know that I am not supposed to be so weak like that. I just hate being treated like that. I hate when people treat me unfairly especially when she did that in front of bunch of people, yelled at me and people believe her. She was choosing me to become the first presenter while no one was able to do that and I was okay with that but the time I have to present she bullied me with her own theory. Can you imagine that? How awful was that!

But go ahead broke me down, telling me that I have to do revision, wasting my time on writing a new theory based on her thought. I DON’T CARE! I’m gonna give way to win this time, not because I am weak but just because I wanted to pass and get and A for her class.

It was only a beginning of an obstacle I have to face during finishing this scriptie up. I hope Allah swt always with me on every single thing I do. Thank you for all the lectures and people who help me on this. I love you all. So good luck for every scriptie writer in this world!!!