Broke Her - Yuna Zarai

Tell me: is this alright with you?
Not having me in your life
I always thought that maybe I could be your wife
And I wouldn't mind living a lie.

And still I keep my hopes up
While you're out there
Out there lighting the dark
Your words they come so easy
Girl, I just wanna be me
All of a sudden I'm not on your team
Replaced by the prettier things

When I see you with all these girls
I just don't understand
I guess I'm not like the rest of them

So is this my punishment, punishment, punishment
Cause baby I'm in pain, I'm in pain, I'm in pain

I'm just trying to overcome
The fact that maybe I was not enough
The only thing that I could think of
Is whether I should give up

So you can be with any girl you like
Singer, model, fashionista, socialite

Buy them all the things your money can buy
You don't owe nobody an alibi
Go ahead and leave me out of your life
No one's gonna ask you where you are tonight

You can tell your friends while you're all high
Yeah I broke her but she'll be alright
Yeah I broke her but she'll be alright
I broke her but she'll be alright
I broke her but she'll be alright

I'm broken but I'll be alright
I'm broken but I'll be alright
I'm broken but I'll be alright

@yunamusic

I LOVE You Yuna !!!

If you know me you should know that I love Yuna Zarai so much. Happy Eid Mubarak Yuna and all of your family. May Allah swt bless your day and your carrier of course. I listen to your newest album and I LOVE IT and always listen to it everyday.

If I should pick a song from your album, I will pick Fading Flowers because it always echoing in my head.

Check out her official website here and don’t forget to buy her newest album on itunes!! : http://www.yunamusic.com/ 

Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna Zarai.wmv

This is my cover for Yuna's song called Dan Sebenarnya.

Hope you guys love it :)  

Yuna - Penakut

One of my favorite song from Yuna newest album DECORATE

Dedicated to someone out there...

don't forget to subcribe me on youtube

She Reads My Blog Post :)

Hey... i'm so happy yesterday. 

first : ZeroNine was visiting my home and WE totally HAD FUN !

the second thing was :

YUNA Retweeted my blog post that I wrote previously..

here it was :

Thank you so much for YUNA and her MOM who read my blog and gave me an advice to stand up for my dream..

May Allah swt. bless you all :)

Thanks for made my day :*

Hijab vs. Skill ( tidak terima jilbab)

Semua orang punya impian mereka sendiri.

Tapi apa yang kamu bakal lakuin kalau ada seseorang yg nempatin kamu ke dalam "kelompok kehidupan" yang bikin kamu gak bisa ngembangin diri kamu sendiri

Ini adalah situasi yang aku hadapi saat ini

Dulu aku berfikir kalau cuma aku yang ngerasain ini

Cara orang memperlakukan cewek berjilbab dengan sangat berbeda

Aku suka nyanyi dan aku suka musik. Aku pengen banget jadi  penyanyi terkenal seperti Taylor Swift, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus n Demi Lovato.

Aku baru nyadar sewaktu aku di Washington, DC

Aku tinggal di sana sebagai siswa pertukaran dari Indonesia. Itu pertama kalinya aku nonton Channel Disney Amerika.

Aku ngabisin waktu nonton mereka di Youtube. Ngeliat banyak remaja yang posting video n nyanyiin lagu-lagu mereka, terus aku coba buat juga.

Aku mulai posting di Youtube n diposting di Facebook juga.

Aku gak percaya  orang-orang terutama dari sekolahku “School Without Walls” pada suka!

Kamu bisa cek videonya disini , Aku ngerti banget deh aku gak bisa nyanyi waktu itu, tapi aku suka ngeliat mereka semua terhibur trus baca semua komentar dari mereka.

Trus waktu itu sekolah aku ngadain “International Day” di George Washington University. Itu pertama kalinya aku tampil nyanyi sambil main gitar di depan banyak banget orang. Aku bener-bener latihan main gitar yg waktu itu aku bawain lagu "Arti Sahabat" nya Nidji. Salah satu lagu band terkenal dari Indonesia.

Aku nervous banget!. Waktu aku tampil semua orang diam, aku takut banget kalau suaraku jelek.Ternyata mereka suka! Aku ngerasa beruntung banget n aku bersyukur banget.

Hampir satu minggu tuh aku denger orang-orang bilang, " Kemaren itu keren banget fitra! Suara kamu bagus banget"!. Dimana aja kapan aja, bahkan waktu aku lagi lari-lari biar gak masuk kelas telat.

Aku masih inget temen satu sekolah aku pernah nanya "Fitra! Di Indonesia kamu artis ya? Soalnya kamu nyanyi bagus banget, nari bagus banget, gak mungkin kalau kamu bukan artis! "

Aku ketawa trus aku bilang di Indonesia mana ada yang kenal apalagi peduli sama aku, aku orang biasa kok.

Setelah itu aku coba ikutan audisi talent show di sekolah. Aku coba nyanyiin lagu pertama yang aku bikin videonya “The Climbnya Miley Cyrus”

Gak nyangka juri yang notabene guru-guru sekolah aku langsung kaget. Mereka gak pakai pikir panjang setelah aku selesai nyanyi mereka bilang aku boleh manggung di talent show

Jadi itu kedua kalinya aku manggung.

Di DC mereka memperlakukan aku sama. Aku ngerasa kalau waktu itu tahun yang terbaik yang pernah ada. Gak pernah ya seumur-umur aku ngerasa di hargain banget semua yang udah aku kerjakan selama ini. Pokoknya gak terlupakan deh.

Terus aku pulang ke Indonesia.

Aku coba nunjukin ke semua orang kalau  suka nyanyi n masih pengen banget menghibur orang lewat nyanyi. Aku gabung ama ekskul seni n nyanyi di kampus. Kita latihan n aku dapat kesempatan tampil nyanyi duet ama sahabatku Venny Johan lebih dari 3 kali. Tapi gak sekeren yang  di DC. Waktu itu yang nonton gak terlalu banyak.

Karena sibuk kuliah, aku gak bisa gabung di ekskul itu lagi. Aku kehilangan kesempatan untuk manggung-manggung lagi. Bahkan aku gak dapat tawaran manggung lagi dari mereka.

Aku kangen manggung banget. Aku berusaha nih nyari band yang mau nerima aku jadi vokalis. Aku pengen banget jadi kaya Hayley Williams - Paramore. Tapi sayangnya yang dapet kesempatan itu Cuma si Venny. Kayanya sih gara-gara aku berjilbab jadi susah cari band yang mau nerima aku.

Udah lama banget, terus ada yg minta aku gabung ama band mereka. Mereka sih bilang gak apa-apa aku pakai jilbab, jadi aku mau gabung sama mereka. Kita latihan bawain lagu-lagunya Paramore. Tapi beberapa hari kemudian aku ngobrol ama salah satu anggota bandnya. Dia bilang penampilan itu penting dalam band. Cewe yang punya penampilan pas buat band walaupun suaranya pas-pasan lebih baik lah daripada cewe yang ga punya penampilan “band” banget tapi suaranya bagus. Dia juga nanya kira-kira bisa gak suatu saat nanti aku manggung gak pakai jilbab.

Aneh sih sebenernya. Emangnya aku harus lepas jilbab biar bisa diterima kalau aku bisa nyanyi? Apa yang salah dengan jilbab?! Jilbab itu udah jadi bagian dari diri aku sendiri?. Sama kaya orang yg gak enak kalau kacamatanya gak di pakai (tentu aja selain alasan agama). Hal yang anehnya lagi, ini kan Indonesia! Negara dengan populasi penduduk muslim terbesar. Dan kebanyakan dari mereka pakai jilbab! Aku gak percaya kalau aku di intimidasi, diperlakukan berbeda di negara sendiri!

Aku gak pernah menyerah.

Temen aku yang lain bilang kalau temennya dia lagi cari vokalis. Aku pikir kali ini bakal serius. Abis aku ketemuan ama mereka kita latian.

Sadar suaraku gak bagus-bagus amat buat band yang mau serius, aku ikutan les vokal dan itu gak murah. Kudu ngorbanin gaji kerja aku untuk ikutan les vokal. Banyak sih yang aku dapat dari kelas itu. Tapi beberapa minggu kemudian yg ngajakin band itu “males” gitu nerima aku jadi vokalis, alasannya dia mau fokus ama band dia yang baru. Ya aku kecewa lagi lah. Eh gak taunya beberapa minggu kemudian aku ngeliat poto dia ama personil band yang baru. Vokalisnya cantik banget n kayanya dia model, ya tentu ajalah dia gak berjilbab.

Di kelas vokal mereka bilang sama aku kalau suara aku itu udah bagus banget tinggal di latih lagi biar lebih bagus jadinya. Terus mereka nanya gini “ ntar kamu kalau mau, ikut kita manggung di acara-acara kawinan, atau acara di hotel tapi ya gak boleh pakai jilbab kecuali ada acara-acara religi yang kamu boleh pakai jilbab”

Lagi lagi dan lagi cewek berjilbab itu di intimidasi dan di perlakukan berbeda.

Aku mulai ngeluh di twitter. Salah satu temen aku bilang “selamat datang di dunia nyata!” . Setau aku sih dia dulu model sebelum dia mutusin untuk pakai jilbab, sekarang dia ngerasain apa yang cewek-cewek berjilbab rasain.

Aku mulai kesal sama semua ini. Banyak banget dah artis yang pakai jilbab gara-gara tuntutan peran doang tapi sehari-harinya enggak, padahal ya banyak diluar sana orang-orang berjilbab yang aktingnya bisa lebih jago daripada mereka.

Tapi ya inilah kenyataan di Indonesia. Mereka gak butuh skill. Mereka butuh cewe yang gak banyak aturan, bisa pakai baju apa aja, rambutnya bisa diapain aja dll

Perbandingan cewek artis atau model terkenal ama yang engga itu ya 1:10!

Alasan kenapa aku nyanyi??

aku pengen banget jadi orang yg bermanfaat bagi orang lain

Kemampuan yang aku paling tau dari dalam diri aku sendiri ya musik yaitu nyanyi

Aku percaya musik itu bahasa universal, bahasa yang di cintai semua orang di belahan dunia manapun

aku pengen jadi orang yg bisa menciptakan perdamaian dunia melalui musik yg aku punya

Kebayang kan gimana bahagianya ngeliat orang yg walaupun berbeda satu sama lain tapi bisa sama-sama menikmati musik yang aku punya dengan damai?

Aku juga mau jadi inspirasi bagi orang lain, orang-orang muda di luar sana biar mereka bisa membela mati-matian impian mereka

Yakin kalau impian itu bukan cuma sekedar mimpi kalau mereka mau bangun dari tidur dan berusaha mewujudkannya

Waktu aku mau nulis tentang ini aku ketemu seseorang. Namanya Yuna. Penyanyi berbakat yang pake jilbab dari Malaysia. Suaranya keren banget deh pokoknya! Cek aja deh videonya di youtube.

Waktu aku ngeliat videonya dia, aku tiba-tiba nangis. Nangis kenapa dia bisa dapetin kesempatan berkarya seperti itu sedangkan aku enggak. Aku berdoa dan berharap aku masih punya kesempatan untuk mewujudkan semua mimpi ma harapan aku. Aku pengen banget jadi penyanyi terkenal, soalnya aku bener-bener suka sama dunia musik dan fashion. Hal-hal itu udah jadi bagian dari hidup aku banget!

Semoga aja aku bisa jadi Yuna yang selanjutnya...

Suatu saat nanti.. ya aku berharap..suatu saat nanti

Hijab vs. Skill ( tidak terima jilbab)

Everybody have their own dream.

But what you gonna do if somebody put you into a "life group" that make you can't even explore about yourself

This is the situation i'm facing right now

At first i thought i'm just the only one who felt this way

The way people threat a girl with " Hijab" differently.

I love singing and i love music. I really want to be a famous singer like Taylor Swift, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus and Demi Lovato.

I just figure it out when i was in Washington, DC

I lived there as an exchange student from Indonesia. That was my first time watching Disney Channel USA.

I spent my time watching them on Youtube. I saw a lot of teenager covering their songs and i tried to make one.

I started posting it on my Youtube channel and posted it on Facebook.

I can’t believe that people especially from my high school School Without Walls love it!

You can check it out here , i was totally understand that i had no singing skill at all at that time, but i love entertain people and read all of their comments.

After that my school had International Day at George Washington University. It was my first time singing and playing guitar in front of a lot of people. I was practicing so hard to be able to play guitar and singing a song called “Arti Sahabat” by Nidji. One of the famous band song from Indonesia.

I was shaking all over my body. People are too quite and i’m too afraid that it wasn’t good at all! But they loved it!  I’m feeling blessed and so grateful.

I spent a week hearing them said “ you did a great job! I love your voice fitra!” it’s been everywhere, everytime. Even when i was running try to get into the class on time.

I still remember one of my schoolmate asked me this question “ Fitra! Are you a superstar in Indonesia? Because you are a good singer, a good dancer too? It’s impossible that you are not a superstar!”

I was laughing and tell her that nobody in Indonesia even care about me, they don’t even know who i am.

After that i went on my school talent show audition. I sang my first video cover song called The Climb by Miley Cyrus.

The judge which is also my school teacher was being fascinating. They didn’t even think. Directly after i finished my song they were say YES and accept me to perform on the Talent Show.

So that was my second perfomance.

In DC they treated me equal. I felt good and that was my most wonderful year ever! I never be in the situation when people really appreaciate things i’ve done. That time was unforgettable.

Then i come back home to Indonesia.

I tried to show people that i love singing and still want to entertain people through my singing performance. I joined with an art and vocal club in my university. We were practicing and i got my chance to do singing performance duet with my best friend Venny Johan more than 3 times. But it wasn’t as great as in DC. There weren’t so many people watching over us.

Because of i’m pretty busy doing my college stuff, i can’t stay on that club anymore. I lost my chance to do a singing performance. They don’t even call me anymore.

I miss that moment. I tried so hard to find a band who can accept me and let me join as a band singer. I really want to be like Hayley Williams – Paramore. But unfortunately noone come to me except Venny got that chance. I think it just because i wear Hijab and they think it’s not even cool have a band singer wear Hijab.

After a very long time someone asked me to join with their band. They said it’ s okay for me to wear Hijab and i accepted that. We were practicing a couple of  Paramore songs. But a few days after i talked with one of the band member. They said that “performance” is the most important thing in the band. Good looking girl with a “band” style eventhou her voice is not really good is better than a very talented singer with a "not too good" looking style. He asked me question whether someday i can take off my Hijab while performing with the band.

That was hurt honestly. Do i have to take off my Hijab so everybody can accept my skill? What’s wrong with my Hijab?!Hijab is a part of me. It's like you feel uncomfortable go somewhere without your eyeglasses (of course instead of religion rule). Another thing, I lived in Indonesia , country with the most moeslim population. And most of them wearing Hijab! I couldn’t even believe that they threat me different in my own country.

I never give up .

My other friend told me that his friend is looking for a singer for his band. I thought this time gonna be so serious. After i met the band members, we went practicing.

Realized that my voice isn’t that good for a serious project, i took vocal lesson and it wasn’t even cheap. I had to take my salary for that vocal lesson. I learned a lot of things from that class. But a week later the band leader kicked me out with a reason that he wanted to focus on his other band. Again and again i find myself dissapointed! After a few week later i saw his picture with a new band members. The singer looks so pretty and i bet she is a model and of course she doesn’t wear Hijab.

In my vocal lesson class they told me that my voice is good i just have to practice a lil more to make it perfect. They asked me question “ we gonna ask you to join us and singing in a wedding event or a hotel event but you know you have to take off your Hijab except in a religious event that maybe ok for you to wear Hijab”.

Again and again people threat a girl with Hijab differently.

I start complaining on my twitter. One of my friend said “welcome to the real world!” . She was a model before she decided to wear Hijab but now she’s just an ordinary girl like the other girl who wear Hijab.

I’m getting mad about this. I hate when an actress wear Hijab just because the script tell them to do so. Hello!!! There are a lot of girl who wear Hijab even in the real life and they might become a good actress too compare to them.

But this is the reality in Indonesia. They don’t need skill. They need girl who can wear sexy dress, cute hair etc.

Compare to the real Hijab girl who become a famous model or actress it’s like 1:10 !

Why i want to be a singer??

i really want to be a kind of person who able to give benefit for everybody in this world

Skill that i recognize the best on me is singing

I believe music is universal language, the language that everybody love it

I want to be a peace maker through the music i have

Could you imagine how beautiful the moment when everybody come together as one no matter how different they are just to enjoy my music peacefully

I also want to be an inspirator for everyone, for all youth people out there so they have a faith to fight for their dreams

Believe that the dreams they have will come true if they want to wake up and struggle to make it real.

While i’m gonna write this thing down. I found her. Her name is Yuna. Talented singer who wears Hijab from Malaysia. Her voice is exteremely amazing! Check out her video on Youtube.

When i saw her video i’m totally crying over her. Why this kind of opportunity is still impossible to me. I pray that i still have a chance to make my dreams come true. I really want to be a famous singer because i really love music and fashion. Those things are just my passion in my life! i hope i can be the next Yuna...

Someday.. i hope someday ...